A sense of my own mortality…


So a co-worker was rushed to the hospital today with a heart attack.. He was only in his mid 50’s but a very angry man.. He rants and raves about just about everything.. He has been with the company for 20 years.. I was on lunch, heard the ambulance but never imagined that it was for my work. I was just across the street sitting in my car in the staff parking lot.. It wasn’t until I got back from lunch that I heard what happened.. Earlier in the day, him and his son, who works in the same department had angry words with another co-worker. I am not sure if this was what caused the heart attack, but I assume that it didn’t help.. To have all that built up anger certainly can’t be good for you.. Lately I have been on  a self destructive eating pattern.. What happened today gives me pause to really take a hard look at the way I am living and do something about it.. I know I don’t eat the best and need to exercise more.. I am almost 65 years old.. Part of me is thinking, I am going to do what I want, when I want and how I want for the rest of my life, as I am  in the last 20 years or so of my existence on this plane..  But then I think what if I keel over tomorrow.. How will it affect my family and friends.. I assume they will miss me.. But I have so many things I want to do and  so many things I want to experience.

I am hoping that “he” gets a wake up call as well as his son, as they both seem to project this anger.. Perhaps that they will be kinder, gentler and less inclined to rant and rave.. I sincerely wish him well and a speedy recovery. I feel for his wife and his two sons. He is not a bad man. just an angry one..  I have lit a candle for him and offered up a prayer to the Goddess..


Thanks for reading…


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